19 June 2008

Sea Cucumber

If you've ever seen a sea cucumber, you know they can throw up their guts when they feel threatened. That's what I'm like. My guts are popping out, and the surgeon showed me about how big the gap is. Just under the size of a tennis ball. He wants the surgery right away, but D is very busy tomorrow and it must wait until Monday. From what I'm hearing, it sure shouldn't be an "outpatient" surgery, given what they have to do. And fevers are "normal?" Oozing stuff out of your guts, also normal? Horrible bruising and swelling, normal?

And how am I going to not lift anything heavier than a milk jug for TWO WEEKS?? If I hadn't been reallly thinking about my spiritual life, I'd have been cussing about now. How's this all going to happen? Oh, and D is working this weekend so a lot of the last-minute shopping and cleaning just isn't going to happen. It just isn't.

I'm very nervous and upset about this, but I am trying to be all spritual and focus on the fact that God is in control. You know, if I die on the table it'll be ok. Same if I come home and everyone eats pop-tarts for two weeks and someone finds out we're eating nothing but pop-tarts and they take the children away for living in an unkempt house and I never see them again and they all wind up heathen, unsaved and going to hell it's gonna be ok.

I'm not worried about it! Ok, I'm really worried about it, but it's still true that God is in control. Please pray that I make it until Monday ok because I gather it's a rather largish gap and my bowel is stuck which is not a good thing. It would be an emergency if it couldn't be periodically unstuck by punching my gut just-so. So I am very grateful that we're catching this before it is a dire emergency and I would have no time to find childcare. D will stay home part of the time and I guess Patrick will not be able to tutor when D has to go back to work.

6 comments:

  1. I had forgotten that my dad had this same problem. He thought he had gas because he could push it back in (thinking he was just pushing air bubbles) and then things would work well for awhile.
    He finally was throwing up and had a high fever before he would go see anyone.
    i am glad you are getting some help now. we will be praying for you.

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  2. ((Mrs. C))I am sorry that you are going through this. You are in my prayers.

    Remember this: God will provide you with what you need.

    Aunt B.

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  3. *Hugs and prayers* Maybe after the surgery you'll feel better than you did before...that would be nice, right?

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    Matthew 6:25

    Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26: Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27: Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

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    I don't know how things work in your house but couldn't the oldest child be given some duties while mom is sick? I very much doubt the state will take your kids away, even if they have to eat Pop Tarts for dinner. Remember that prayer actually works (I forget this often) and know that you have friends that care. I'd help you if only you lived in my area! And I'm sorry that things are stressful, I know it's rough but you need to do this because mommy can't be mommy if she gets worse because she didn't get a needed surgery.

    Keep us updated!

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  4. What a terrible situation to find yourself in! I wish there was something practical I could do to help, but really, I'm a tiny bit too far away. I hope that the surgery goes as well as can be expected and you make a quick recovery. The family will survive- they are tougher than you think. I don't think anyone ever died from eating Pop-Tarts! Not over a two week period, anyway.

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  5. Mrs C. Everything is going to be ok.. and you really really need this surgery right now..

    (((((HUGS))))) You will be able to "direct traffic" from the sofa I am sure.


    You will be in my prayers xxx Kim

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